So I’m going to be very vulnerable right now. I’m going to be sharing things I don’t normally share with others. Because I’ve learned from counseling that I am very guarded and closed off. Like I said in a previous post, I’m not a very good communicator. And also, I’m embarrassed about what I had become.
Growing up I was always very thin, I was also a competitive swimmer for 15 years. And I was a model and actress. I was always very fit so my sharing this is very hard.
I have been on a weigh loss journey. It started in October 2018 when I bought a pair of pants in a size….gulp….18. And they were snug. What. The. Fuck? How did I get here? Here I was sitting at almost a size 20. Size 20??!! OMG!!! I had to make a change. But I tried everything. I’ve done every diet under the sun. I’ve exercised. Everything out there, I’ve tried. And it didn’t work. My problem is I’m a binge eater. Also, I ate my feelings. I wish I was one of those people who can’t eat when they are upset. But I’m the opposite. If I was happy, I ate. If I was sad, I ate. Every emotion, I ate.
I was at my heaviest. I had high blood pressure, headaches and migraines, and I felt terrible everyday. I contemplated weigh loss surgery but didn’t want to have to go there. Surgery and I never do well. So I made an appointment to see my doctor. I needed to find a way to get my binge eating under control.
Now before I tell you what I did, I want to remind you I’m sharing what worked for me. Because what worked for me may not work for you. And I thought long and hard before doing this. So please keep criticism to a dull roar. I decided to try phentermine with proper exercise and a healthy diet.
I am down 55 lbs. my blood pressure is now back to normal, no more meds. I also don’t get as many headaches or migraines. I feel better than I have in years. And I look a million times better than I have in years. I exercise five days a week and I eat better and smaller portions.
Here’s my before and after: