adventure, Arkansas, wanderlust

49 years young

On Sunday we celebrated my husbands 49th Birthday. I cannot believe he is almost 50. And I’m almost 40. Where has the time gone?

The day started with breakfast of pancakes and eggs. Then he opened his gifts. A record player and 3 records to get his collection going.

We then took him to lunch at The Crescent Hotel, which is the one of the most haunted hotels per the tv show, Ghost Hunters. We ate their award winning BBQ Chicken Pizza. It was amazing.

We explored Eureka Springs and ended the day at the Bavarian Inn, which is a German restaurant. We met his parents there for birthday dinner.

It was a great day. Probably one of the best birthdays in awhile. This has been a tough year for us. So I’m glad this birthday turned out great for him.

adventure, Arkansas, DadLife, daughters, family, food, Home, Joy, kids, Life, love, marriage, MomLife, parenting, wanderlust

Heading to the Square

Today after dinner, we decided to take our girls to the downtown square to walk around, enjoy the weather and eat some ice cream.

We made a stop in a new chocolate store here called KYYA Chocolate. The girls tried milk chocolate mixed with marshmallow and myself and dad tried champagne infused chocolate. It was different. Not sweet. Kind of bitter but not in a bad way. I know that’s a weird way to describe it.

Next we went to the Spark Cafe Soda Fountain. The girls each got a milk shake and dad and I shared a cone of mint chip. We enjoyed our treat while walking around the square. We even found an awesome record store called Block St. Records. And of course, they mainly sold only records. I was sad they were closed because looking in the window, they had some awesome ones like Type O Negative, Iron Maiden, and Motley Crüe. We will definitely have to go back when they are open.

So all in all it was a great evening. The girls kept saying what a fun evening this was.

divorce, family, Life, love, marriage, Seperation

Falling back in love

Do you think it’s possible after having a tumultuous relationship, that you can fall back in love with your spouse?

My answer, absolutely. And how do I know this? Because it’s happening to me. My husband and I separated in February and were on the verge of divorce. I’m not going to get into the full details of it yet. But it got to the point in our relationship where I didn’t feel any love at all. And he felt the same way. We were like two roommates raising two kids together. There was no I love you, no hugs, no kisses, no romance, nothing. It got to the point where I didn’t think he loved me anymore. I didn’t even think he liked me anymore. And we had become so resentful of one another.

Once I told him I wanted to divorce, things begin to change. It was as if the lights went off for him. He slowly started to become the man I had longed for in the 17 years that we’ve been together. But I’ll admit that for the first two months of our separation, the light didn’t go off for me. Because I didn’t want it to. I was still holding onto so much anger and hurt that I just wanted it to be over. I was telling myself that I wasn’t in love with him anymore and that we just needed to go our separate ways.

Then one day at the end of April after having a wonderful Mother’s Day and actually having fun with him and our children together, I slowly begin to see him in another light. He had told me that our separation had opened his eyes. He had been purposely hurting me because he had been hurt. It was a never ending circle. But by almost losing everything, it makes you realize what you have.

I slowly began to let my feelings for him resurface again. And bit by bit I slowly began to fall in love with him again. So now here we are in July and I can absolutely say that I am in love with my husband again. Our relationship is completely different than it ever has been in our 17 years together. And I can honestly say that I am happier than I ever have been. And now when people ask him how he and I are doing, I hear him tell them that we are doing wonderfully and that our relationship is better than ever. We hug and kiss everyday. We laugh together and hold hands. And we never leave each other without saying I love you.

So yes, it is possible to fall in love with your husband or wife all over again. Because I’m speaking from experience.

Arkansas, DadLife, daughters, family, health, Life, marriage, MomLife, Social Media

Put down your phone

I never realized how much life I was missing by being on social media. It became an obsession. I had to check who was commenting on or likening my pictures. I had to post a new selfie each day. I had to read and see how great everyone’s lives were compared to mine.

So I was always sitting there with my head in my phone. If someone wanted to talk to me, I would pretend to listen while I scanned my social media. I lost out on watching so much of what my kids were doing because my nose was always in my phone.

Social media has made this world more narcissistic. And it’s dumbing us down as a society. Where people once read the newspaper to get their news , now just skim for it on Twitter. I, myself made the decision to leave all social media behind. I was tired of feeling like I was tied to my phone all the time. And before you say anything, yes I do have this blog. However, the blog post that I post, are written when my children are not around. I either write them after they’ve gone to bed, or early in the morning when I’m waiting to go into work. Or even on my lunch break. I try to leave my phone down as much as possible when I’m with my kids.

I never paid much attention to it until I got rid of my social media. Now I watch all these parents with their noses in their phone and not paying one bit of attention to their children. And I don’t ever want to be like that again. Your kids are only little once, enjoy them.

adventure, Arkansas, family, Life


So after my breakdown, we decided to still go out. The drive was beautiful. We drove to Eureka Springs and then down to Hobbs State Park.

I still can’t get over the beauty of Northwest Arkansas. So green and lush. So beautiful. So we stopped at the visitor center and looked around.

Daddy was getting us gas.

There he is.

Trying out the rocking chairs in front of the visitor center.

Sporting California

Sloane checking out the snake

This giant bat even scared me.

Such a cute bear.

These trees remind me of the Mystery Spot in Santa Cruz, CA. Both trees were bent the same.

So even though our morning was absolutely horrible. The evening ended up much better.

DadLife, MomLife, parenting

Break Down

So I had a break down Saturday morning. I had planned a nice day for my family before the storms rolled in. We were gonna go for a nice drive to Hobbs State Park and stop at the visitors center which has a little area to look at animals and learn about nature. Then go for a nice hike.

But then my oldest had to start in. She’s 9 going on 19. So her and I don’t always see eye to eye. She has a knack for not listening and talking back. And well…she pushed me to my limit Saturday.

I went in my room, locked the door and cried. And I mean cried. Like that real hard ugly face cry where you have tears streaming down your face and your nose is running all over the place. It was not a pretty site. I definitely didn’t want my husband seeing me like that.

But in the end, she and I talked and I explained things to her. I’m her parent. And what I say goes. And the same with her dad.

Sometimes in motherhood, you just need to step away and cry it out. Don’t be ashamed of that. Being a parent is hard. It doesn’t mean you love your kids any less. You just need a moment for yourself.

Friendship, Life, marriage, MomLife


I want people to know that not everything you see on Facebook is real. People who present themselves as having the perfect life, the perfect marriage, the perfect children… just know, that they probably don’t.

So don’t go comparing yourself to others. Especially based on what you see on social media because people want to portray what they want others to see.

People aren’t going to go on Facebook or Twitter or Snapchat or any other social media platforms and show you how bad their life is. How they are fighting with their spouse, having a hard time with their children, or on the verge of divorce, or maybe they’re depressed and don’t like themselves. But they aren’t going to show that. Because they want to put up a front that they are happy and that life is perfect. Because no one wants others to see their faults. They want to people to think that they have the perfect life. They want to seem like they are better than others when really they’re not.

And I’ll admit when I used to be on social media, as I am no longer on any social media platform, I was exactly like that. I wanted people to think I had this amazing life and that I was this amazing mom. When in truth I make mistakes just like everybody else. I’m not a perfect mom, I’m not a perfect wife, I’m not even a perfect friend. I have my faults just like everyone else. And I am learning to be OK with that.

So you won’t see me on this blog portraying myself as anything other than what I really am, a flawed human being. I’m gonna show you the real me. And I am slowly learning to be OK with who I am.

Self love and acceptance are hard. And I’ll be the first one tell you that. Because I’m still learning it myself.